Even though my dad’s fight ended and I still miss him all the time, I look back on those days with gratitude.
From USA Today
From Stuart Scott -“When you die, it does not mean that you lose to cancer. You beat cancer by how you live, why you live, and in the manner in which you live”
By Sydni Scott, daughter of the late ESPN commentator Stuart Scott. She is a Rhodes scholar after graduating as a student-athlete at Columbia University.
“At 23 years old, I’m already sick of being in hospitals. I’m unsettled by the familiar murmuring hum of the fluorescent ceiling lights and I dread the stomach-turning response I get whenever I encounter the powdery smell of blue latex-free gloves.
“I spent most of my childhood sitting in lobbies, anxiously waiting for news about my dad, Stuart Scott.
Even though my dad’s fight ended and I still miss him all the time, I look back on those days with gratitude.
From USA Today
From Stuart Scott -“When you die, it does not mean that you lose to cancer. You beat cancer by how you live, why you live, and in the manner in which you live”
By Sydni Scott, daughter of the late ESPN commentator Stuart Scott. She is a Rhodes scholar after graduating as a student-athlete at Columbia University.
“At 23 years old, I’m already sick of being in hospitals. I’m unsettled by the familiar murmuring hum of the fluorescent ceiling lights and I dread the stomach-turning response I get whenever I encounter the powdery smell of blue latex-free gloves.
“I spent most of my childhood sitting in lobbies, anxiously waiting for news about my dad, Stuart Scott.
“Chemotherapy days were the best time to hang out with him. We had a routine that involved sugary boxed cereal and ginger ale with the lights dimmed – so we could say it was like watching a movie in the theater or a TV show in the family room. Those days were unique: awful and familiar.
“Through admirable yet unattainable discipline, he set out on his mission to work out every time he had chemo. And I often tagged along as he – through grins or gritted teeth – unplugged from his treatment and went to the gym to practice mixed martial arts.
“Some days he just couldn’t do it. For years I watched him fight and win, and for months I watched him fight and lose.
“A weariness crept into his eyes and a fragility weighed on his shoulders. On those chemo days, I’d press play on the movie knowing we wouldn’t be going to the gym and he’d fall asleep before it was over. And I watched him do that because I knew things were changing. Now, I paid special attention to the parts I thought he’d like most so that when he woke up I could tell him what he missed.
“Over the course of seven years, I saw the battles my dad fought start to change. His fight for himself became a struggle for me and the future he knew he wouldn’t see.
“In those months we spent together, I learned what “the fights” of life were. They come in different sizes and to different degrees and are best taken on with good intentions and a strategically curated team approach.
“As time passed, I started to recognize when the hopelessness he previously protected me from seeing would flicker across his face.
“Even though my dad’s fight ended and I still miss him all the time, I look back on those days with gratitude. Those afternoons when my father felt as though he failed, when we sat in the hospital room, those were the moments we had been fighting so hard for.
“If the purpose of my father’s fight and the fight of the family to support him was to have small valuable moments together, we were ultimately victorious. The hours my dad and I spent watching movies in the dark was our tiny effort to resist what we couldn’t control – and what we won was time spent well. I hoped my small efforts to share the burden of what he was going through impressed upon him the magnitude of my love.”